Little Scotty

How does Karl Rove allow Little Scotty McClellen to speak his peace to the House Judiciary Committee? Rumor has it that McCain won't make it to the election. I think Scotty may have some unseen health concerns also and soon. This may be why he has seemed to have a crumb in his craw to clear his slate before he moves on for good. Even though we have his new book it is not going to reveal exactly what inspired him to turn on the BFEE.

Homeland Security

On my way back from the bike shop, I stopped at the rowing club to rest a bit and have some medicine and watch the sailboats and other watercraft. I noticed our Local Coast Guard boat heading up the channel. I counted the crew(6) and noted they were out at a nice time of day after lighting up I turned around and saw they were now towing another water craft. My first thought, "OK, They're arresting someone, or No they're helping a stranded craft get safely out of the navigation channel." BINGO. Only one hitch, the stranded craft was another Local Coast Guard Craft." Now were they training in rescue techniques or do our Local Coast Guard watercraft need a tune-up just in case the 4th largest port in North America has a problem?

I hope I am being naive and it was just rookies getting a handle on stringing out a tow line. And not a case of, as in Iraq, equipment that is substandard and failing in the everyday operations in smooth seas and moderate temperatures. I am being ever vigilant anyway until I know things are safely back in the hands of the other guys.

No Singing Allowed

I called the White House Comment Line. 202-456-1111. I wanted to speak a little about my pride in guys who are still working for me in D.C. Mr Kucinich once more started impeachment articles. Mr Wexler joined him in the work. I called the comment line and started to sing "I'm So Proud" with new words. The volunteer started to shout "Don't Sing! Don't Sing!" I was taken aback by this censorship and then i realized this is a volunteer, they don't want to have to try to transcribe the words to a song sung over the phone. It is hard for even a trained musician to decipher the sounds of distortion. Another sign of the loss of freedom. The silencing of the song. Isn't singing a pursuit of happiness? What does the new signing statement constitution look like? When W re-writes the damn piece of paper will it resemble anything that the founders wrote? i hardly think so and if it does it didn't come from the brain of Dick Cheney(Darth).

Hate Speech

Michael Reagan is now promoting hate speech which if he were a leftist would be considered terrorism. In fact it is terrorism. To call for murdering babies and mothers and the final solution, killing all the residents of the Middle East.
It is a sad state of affairs when someone who claims the name of Grandpa Reagan and acts like Joseph Goebells. If he was broadcasting in Germany he would be arrested and tried for war crimes. Thank God the war is protecting his right to hate and to ask others to hate and hope for murder and mayhem. Thank God his sponsors are getting their money's worth from Mr Reagan. They won't get my money though and they will get my boot in the ass if I ever get that close, but no grenades. Grenades are exclusively for fascists like Michael Reagan to kill 1 year old babies and their mothers.

Regrets

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/06/15/opinion/15dowd.html?em&ex=1213761600&en=b127e362f13ca708&ei=5087%0A

The article By MoDowd from Paris tells how Mr Bush has not really changed at all since 2002. It is the sign of a sociopath that kills so many people and has no regrets. I have regrets maybe I am making up for his insensitivity to the mayhem and violence perpetrated by his war on terrorism. The use of cluster ordinances on civillian targets in Afghanistan and Iraq the detention and torture of children and the wiretapping of US domestic communications without warrants. Only three of 35 articles of impeachment presented to the US Congress one week ago.

At least I do not regret voting for the guy or standing sliently as he declared his wars. I only regret the ineffeicency with which the congress and the citizens of this great nation had in delaying or defeating the fascist putsch of the Neocon (Perl Wolfowitz Rumsfeld) forces that ruled foreign policy.
7 dollars for some commodities.

Home

Its Saturday and I am listening to www.kboo.fm bluegrass music in fact from 9-12 in the morning. I am writng here because my other blog is down for some reason www.myspace.com/bcmartinmusic
There is a video of my present musical endeavor. There is a picture of me age 3 before I had my innocence taken from me. How did I know I was going to be a Buddhist? Yeah the fat guy they burn incense on. Shakymuni was not obese and not an ecstatic either though nirvana is approached in his teachings. Speaking of teachers I saw Matthew Fox walking through my space where I actually play. It's our church, Mat. Come on by and you don't have to partake in the sacraments but if you listen carefully you can hear all the places Jazz was in our jams.
The next day after I talked to Mat and invted him to come by and listen, I was at the rowing club on the bench medicating and a young man approached around the corner and asked if he could sit dowm. i smiled and said of course to which he commented that some people are not so friendly. His story in short, evicted for being poor HIV+ and can't handle the rent increase on disablilty SSI. Thrown out of a shelter after being taken for his last 20$ and wondering where he is going to sleep, if he should take his meds without food even though he knows it will make himsick.
I gave him some medicine. I gave him my scarf I recieved from my musician friend from Thailand. I gave him 10 $ I just happened to have for such emergencies. I thought of Matthew at that time. Am I a "minister"? where is my sangha? How do I transform and do the "work". It costs money to be a mystic healer. Can you send me some please Ms Universe?
Just enough not too much.
Thank you

Where Did That Year Go?

Its the 10th of May. I have worked exactly one day since last march(07). It has been a long year. My So almost dying and her maternal unit dying in January. My lack of work has varied as to its severity in psychosocial stressors. I have been threatened with eviction and I have been to the depths of winter depression on top of all of it. I have had at least three interviews for work and not a single close call or second interview. I guess enigma would be a good word to describe myself. What is my problem? I should be making fat dough, right? I am just a gullible and innocent country boy inside and the city has eaten me up.
I didn't get my EBT food today and it upsets me. Not that I can't survivce without them but it gives me a little ease. i should be ashamed i cannot just get a job and walk free and happy to the kingdom of god. But it isn't quite working that way.
I thought I had hope and faith enough to get through all of this. On some days i do have enough. Today it seems likely I will not have the courage to smile and forget how close to desperation I really am. I am grateful for all my friends and family who beleive in me. I am just not so sure why they do . Its all a bunch of hopeless half starts and stops I have made all my life and these thinsg now haunt me. I was taught to let go of these and it is not as easy to do as to speak. I have lost things slowly over time and at times I delude myself by thinking I can just walkaway from it all. which is a choice but one i feel would be a disgrace to my small life I have lived. So I once more seem to have failed in my efforts to make a slight difference in the scene.
Maybe someone else will take it from me and i won't have to go all the way. Like i said before it is not to be told how much i wanted to live or to feel like i lived at all.